Escaping the Tower of the Downtrodden

Tis an update! Throw the confetti(s), send out the invitations, and...um...yeah. 

Soooooo, it's been  a bit, and not much has changed! Isn't that exciting! I'm still hanging out with the roomies in bend, going to the community college, and attempting to get my shite together. Had to drop classes, so now i'm only taking math. Yay for not being prepared financially!

Been yakking to a couple new friends online quite a bit, and watching a ton of new movies. Other than that... not so much. Starting to realize how much it sucks not having an income, and considering my options. Also, i'm going to make a huge effort to get into PSU for the fall, so hopefully that will go smoothly. I could use a successful mission to boost my confidence. 

Well, that's all for now.

There hasn't been much happening around here the last week or so, but I figured I would post what i've been up to. Last weekend my friend went and got himself tattooed. I know, exciting right? (woo) He wanted me to draw it, but i talked him out of it. I certainly dont want to be the one to blame five years (or sooner) from now when he starts hating it.
Had a bit of a get together to play "arkham horror", a boardgame set in the H.P. Lovecraft world. It took us four hours to play, but it's good times.

Sunday night my dad picked me up to go christmas shopping, which basically meant barnes and noble and michaels (two of my favorite places :P ) Finished that up, bought everybody books, not that there were many people on my list.

I went to prineville and stayed through wednesday. Christmas was good. Finally got the crockpot ive been wanting, so I shall be breaking that in this weekend.

All in all, pretty good, nothing spectacular, nothing horrible. I'm certainly looking forward to getting back to school though. That is, if i dont die in a car wreck driving on the ice before that.

Oh em gee, slowcooker of doom.

It's friday, December 21st. It's dark, raining, and cold outside, and for once, that doesnt bother me at all. Something about the weather changes my perception of the world, but the negative effects are waining.

It's been a great week. I was able to have some fun with a couple friends that I haven't seen for quite some time. We watched several movies, Superbad (suprisingly funny), cannibal holocaust, oldboy, butch cassidy, ect. Good times basically. Now i'm here thinking to myself, generally content with the world.

I'm going to see my grandmother tomorrow, she's riding over with my dad, both of which i havent seen for quite a while as well (dont really see much of anyone, besides the two roommates to be quite honest!). Going back to prineville on sunday and staying through wednesday for the holiday or whatever. I'm looking forward to it. :)

As for everything else, its all pretty good. A couple solid days with no drama, which blows my mind. Even the vultures who live to suck the life out of all they encounter have been absent, and I couldn't be happier.

Do you know what is absurd? Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix has been out on DVD a WEEK now, and I haven't purchased it! I think my innate capatalist/consumerist compulsion is fading! So, there aren't a lot of "things" I care that much about, but seriously, Harry Potter! meeeehhhh!

Anyway! On to other, more grandiose thought!

I have finally picked up two picture discs filled with family photos that my grandma made for me, and boy, what a great lot they are! I found myself feeling this unknown pride i've not felt before. It was great, i must admit. I have decided that this summer I shall make a pilgrimage to either Alaska or North Carolina, the two places that most of the family lives. Ive never been to either, and I feel pretty guilty about it. It's time to re-establish bonds that have diminished over the years. I long for the chance to reintroduce myself and really start the next chapter of life. Its nice to really start understanding what matters in this world. :)

On another front, a good friend of mine and I had a wonderful conversation this morning and I think that I shall be venturing up to washington soon for some adventures as well. Seems like taking the reigns of my own life will really start paying off soon. The fat is slowly being trimmed from my world, and the genuine, quality aspects are becoming brighter than ever. Don't know what the hell is coming over me, but I must say, I enjoy it. Guess this is growing up?

 

   Most of my days seem to be spent performing meaningless, cosmetic, tasks over and over and over again. Get up, eat, sit in front of the computer, read a book, watch a movie, talk about the same tripe to friends with which i have discussed every subject possible straight into the ground, eat dinner (maybe), and go to bed. Nothing seems to really have any significance, and if it does, college for instance, in the back of my mind, its probably only for the comfort of a better future financial status; a comfortable living. I will be able to buy more things to "entertain" me, killing time, knocking down hours until my death.

I watched the movie "Into the Wild" today. I had read the book in my 11th grade sociology class, and wasn't impressed. Fortunately, my mind and body have experienced and grown so much in the last four years that I don't have to dwell on past indifference. Now, in 2007, as a 21 year old, I see the film and book as one of the most important stories written. I believe that I have discovered it just in time; it could not have been more perfect. Haven been given the push to reanalyze myself in the desperate attempt find what I am looking for in life, I now have a new found confidence. I cant believe how many emotions can be present at any given time, but the number is too many to describe, or even interperate for myself. We shall see how things turn out, and either way, life will soon be going into it's next chapter.

I think this story is exactly what I was looking for. 

Well, hello there. Welcome to my first post! I decided to start writing a blog so I have an outlet for imposing my thought onto others.

Basically, i'm just a semi-sane guy living in central oregon. Going to the community college, studying graphic design (or at least the gen. education that will lead to it), and looking around for a nice school to transfer to next fall. Been sort of looking around for new friends and experiences more than usual as I feel I lead too much of my social life soley on the internet. It is 2007 though, guess that is what is expected.

Not a ton of stuff going on in my life, finally on christmas break from college. A good friend of mine is back in town from OIT, and we've been watching a ton of movies. Been trying to go back and see all of the "classics" that I have missed up to this point. Not exactly a classic in the "Citizen Kane"/"To Kill a Mockingbird" sense, but all the same, the most recent was Cannibal Holocaust.

Um..yeah...wow. That is about all I can say.

It is this insane movie about a group of documentary film makers that go into the "green inferno", a.k.a the amazon rainforest to film some cannibal tribes. Now, this was made in 1979, but is more realistic than anything I have seen before. I felt almost guilty watching it, but still entertained. The only part I was uncomfortable with was an actual green turtle slaughter that was filmed.

Anyway, yeah. So, thanks for reading and stay tuned!


Tommy